Body Movin’
Body Movin’
Ok here is a link to my hype song for this particular blog post:) Background music for ya!
Body Movin You’re Welcome.
We are packin up and movin out!!! Oh don’t get ahead of yourself now, in true Hinchman spirit we are only moving .3 miles from our current home. You didn’t actually think we were doing a real location move to another city or state?? This is ME we are talking about here. Let me remind you that I grew up in ONE house...never moved. I remember the day my older sister moved onto the UC Berkeley campus for college, my mom cried and said things like “I just can’t believe she is gone...my baby has gone away to school.” To which I quickly replied “Uh-mom...she is across the bridge in Berkeley...we can see her weekly.”
When I was ten years old my mom's best girlfriend, Kathy, moved from Daly City to Burlingame. If you take the 280 freeway it is literally a twenty minute drive. Yet you would legit hear my mom say “I just don’t know what I’m gonna do without you Kath”.... This should give you insight into how I grew up. We never moved. We went to the same elementary school my mom did. All four of us sisters went to LOCAL colleges. It’s just against our DNA to move. When I say MOVE I think I actually mean relocate. In my adult life I have moved a bazillion times. I was the daughter who wanted a new cute apartment every year...then I would move home again...then out….I have lived in Daly City (grew up there), San Francisco (my first apt in the mission and then with a boyfriend in Potrero Hill), Oakland (same Boyfriend as SF), Burlingame (lived alone), San Mateo ( 3 diff places), Redwood City is where we started our family and we have actually lived here for 12 years:)
Leaving this particular place gives me mixed emotions. It’s time for a fresh start. The kids are old enough now that they need their own rooms. We have outgrown this space both physically and emotionally. When their dad and I separated we had only lived here as a family of four for about six months. I am now approaching my fifth year here and it still blows me away that I have lived here this long with just me and littles. This place is where the three of us learned to be brave. If we heard a noise then mommy got up to check it out. It’s where we laughed and cried about our changing family structure. It’s also the place that gave us great comfort and a sense of home when things felt really upside down. It took some time to feel comfortable enough to be here just the three of us. Without really knowing it, more often than not, the kids would end up sleeping in my bed with me. I would (sometimes) silently cry with them right next to me as I worried about how this divorce would change their view of safety. But most of the time I just loved falling asleep next to their warm little bodies-nothing better.
I have always said “I don’t like change”. It’s true--I don’t like it. Yet I have realized that the fear of change has never stopped me from “the doing”. The number of things I am afraid of are numerous--spiders, anything with wings, a dark hallway, small spaces, sad movies where someone dies… But here are the BIG ONES.
Flying (done it several times)
Live alone (done it more than one)
Disagree with someone and hold my ground (yep, check)
Knowing someone doesn’t like me and carry on (yes, this one for sure)
Continue to run a successful home based business that many support, but just as many judge (every single day)
Before my mom died she said “If you are not doing something simply out of fear, then you MUST do that thing.” Simple as that. Though I am afraid of this move, WE ARE DOING IT. I know it’s right for us. This is the courage I want to pass along to my children. Be afraid but do it anyway. Move, fail, move back home, leave the state for college (I just threw up a bit). I want them to live their lives without putting my fear stuff on them. The only way I can do that is to tell them how I feel and show them I have the courage to do it anyway. Nailing this parenting thing...I literally just laughed out loud. #TrainWreck #HotMess #AlwaysLove
BB moved in with us in December with the understanding that we would find a space together. We feel like this is the perfect place. It has been really emotional to see her develop a deeper bond with the kids and define her role in the family and the house. I mean, I’m still the boss but….hardly! I can’t even say that with a straight face. And yes…#FinchTheCat came too.
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